A new Leaf

There is only 2 and half days left untill 2011.

I started over new.

I made up with my mom and i am gettin to know my step father better. it turns out he is a really cool guy. Tho i only have 1 mother and 1 father, it is pretty cool to have back up parents. there is alot of things i can learn from him when it comes to technology.

I kmoe that you are not suppose to have a favorite and that's ok but when it comes to being at ma moms house i have realize that i am more calmer around ma mom, even tho i may not like her at times, there is always something i can find that she is more cooler.

Being at ma moms house i have the opportunity to do things i cant at ma dads. Its sad to say but at ma dads i feel like there are rules that a person at my age should not have to follow. it feels to much like a house that is made for a child with a curfew and rules.( like time limit on computer and video games or be in bed at a certain time) i feel like i have more freedom at ma moms.

you never realize how much you need someone till u dont have them in your life and that could be for a few mins or a a few months. it just aint the same when they are not there.

now on to my love life......................

i may say all the time i dont want a boyfriend or a relationship and i have my reason for that.

The person i have fell in love with was always out of reach, that is until now.

I am going to take every chance i can get to make this work the right way, some have said that he is not what i want him to be but they just dont understand what is going on.

being with a man that has a child is not always easy and i understand that. but when you love someone yu find ways to make it work.

I am now 22 years old and i am not getting any younger. i am going to start over new and do what i have to do for me.

A NEW YEAR A NEW MEE amd alot of ppl say that and dont act on it. well me i am deffinettly going to acct on it.




so until next time

Happy new year everyone

The end is near

OK so its been w really long time since i have been on here, i know shame on me.

But hey a gurl has to do what she has to do to survive on the streets lol.

so the semester is almost over like dead ass onli a week to go. it was a pretty easy half of the year, sort of looking forward towards the spring. so many different and hard classes to take.
-Pre Cal
-Phsyc
-Eng Comp 2
-Speach
-Bio

so yea thats what i got in the spring.

Stuff that got me sad
-JOvie is moving to PR :( but hey look at it this way i got some where to go for spring break. :)
-I am gonna be 22 in two weeks time so flys so quick
-I miss my lil man so much :*(

when they say what ever dont kill you makes you stronger, they are so right because so many things come into your life to try and stop you from getting to where you wanna go and its up to you if its gonna stop you or not.

wellll i am gonna make a promiss that i am gonna write more on here so you guys knoes whats up

tata for now

Summer so far

Ok so i know its been a while since i have been on but let me tell you summer is going good so far.

I got a job in a law firm thru the summer youth and OMG its great. My bosses are very nice and both are females. One is a entertainment lawyer and the other one is real estate. Its a small cozy office nothing to big.

I got accepted into City Tech, so happy about that and then Manika aka ma bestie is having me join a sorority. So with that i am going to be a Gamma Nu Delta.

Other then that my twin was down here for a while so that made me happy. Boys i am not really worring about them right now because this is the summer time to have fun and no worries.

With this job i hope to get some more experience and a good letter of reference or a letter of recommendation. I try to get as much out of certain things as possible because you don't know how they may affect you when you are older.

tilll later

<3 ya

Lets play catch up

Ok so i have not been on for a while so that means its time for an update.

Him and her aint together i think she found some one else thank god. But any way was out all weekend with Amy, Cj, Millz, Da, Danny, H.O, Bizzy and who ever else. Let me tell you i have not thought about the things i usually think about nothing was on my mind

I went to C.I wit Amy and her mom's and i came back with a burn not a tan a burn that shyt sucks. But its going a way now so that means i am back to my self the troublemaker that i am.

Ma baby is comin home next weekend cause he is gonna have money. BUt hey idc about him having money cause thats ma baby.

its about 7:30 am right now no one is up but me sio yea type bored


be back later

life sucks

She claims that i have her left overs and that all i do is taste her. 1 she steals ma words and 2 he is not in love with you any more.

I hate when females hold on to something that aint theirs no more and cause so much drama for the next. like seriously get over it. he must not want you no more so that y he moved on to the next one.

Situatiions are complicated at this time. I can't see him till god knows when and it pisses me off becasue she still calls him baby and shyt like that. you have his baby but he aint your babe.

Females what we gonna do with them

ON the other hand my sisters and i mean all of them are coming down this weekend what a fun thing that is gonna be.

day went pretty good spent all day playing catch up with Law & Order: SVU and the Bad Girls Club.

Still waiting for this dam thing to come so it can ease my mind but then again i still have other things to worry about.

I think she is stalking me thru cyber space

can that be a crime

Decissions

LAst night was so much fun, i need it so bad. to be away from it all was great.

But still so many decissions i have to make. so many things i still need to find out. Things to straighting out.

I am so set on my future i know whats gonna be in it and whats not. I wanna be all that i can and i live to accomplish that. I found the man of my dreams and i want it to be like for ever.

I wake up every morning thinking of what i must do to make it right. what has to be added and what has to be deleted. its a long process but hey it has to get done

Ok so i have not been up to date with this ish but yea life is getting crazier and crazier. Sometimes it getts to hard to handle and i just wanna say F it. But you really can't. What would the world be like if everyone just gave up on life.

Well for now I am glad i have ma bestie there to help me through it all. some times he can be a big help but others it could be him thats the problem. I guess its just hard to deal with what i have to deal with.

So anyway around late june- mid july i should be receiving my acceptance letter to school. can't wait for that to come. But hopefully I will be working in the summer.

A good friend of mind is coming back to NY. He was living in Atlanta for the past year and I guess he could not take it no more. so he will be returning by next week.

Well i have to get ready busy day today

TTYL