what erks my nerves

ok so everyone has something or somethings that just annoys the ish out of them

i have a list

1. clingy people
2. metal rubbing on metal
3. people that think they know everything when they know nothing
4. ones that think that they a better then everyone
5. the stupid auto correct on my ipod touch
6. the fact that u have to sneeze and it just wont come out
7. a loud burp that comes put as just air
8. commercials that cut into other commercials
9. one piece of paper that is out of place for no reason
10. twisted bra straps
11. when u realize you have no more shampoo when u get in the shower


i know i have more but i can't think of them right now

the month of june is almost over. i so wish school was here already.
I feel like this is the worst summer of my life. i know he hates me just by the way he says the things he says.

why can't anyone ever like me for me?

I understand how you are and i can deal with that but please dont try and change me. i like how i am some of the time and i wont dare change how you are becasue i dont like it.

I can't believe i am going to make this into a post about me writing to you, no i wont do that.

This is about me and my randomness.......

I have finally got a summer job, even if its working for the PAL (Police Athletic League) its something and i am happy.

I have to make a dicission if i really wanna go with them to florida or do i want to stay here in NEW YORK.

My whole life is here and idk how i could start over. well i guess i have to look at it from a whats better point of view

For now

me *

What i need? Who I am? What's it worth?

i wanna know how deep you can get. i wanna know how you really feeling.

No holding back this is what i need. I need you to take me as i am, no changing no complaining.

I am the over emotional, always stressing, nothing is perfect, crazy white girl who sets no boundries and lives for the moment but can be serious yet still acts like a lil kid.

I can't help who i am and i dont expect people to like it all. when yu take me you take all of me.

you can't change me nor will i do so because of what you don't like.

i bottle everything up inside and it wont come out unless its forced. i get these pains because of it and will never let it show.

i wanna be liked because of who i am not because of what can be changed about me.

there is no other girl like me and this is what you like about me dont let it go to waste.

I AM WHO I AM NOT WHAT ANY ONE WANTS ME TO BE

so tell me what is it all worth?

Dead feelings

I have to lie to protect my self. It is just something you wont understand.

Summer is starting off OKAY i guess. All i hear is the bitter sounds of your disappointment, the fact that i can never be good enough for you says a lot.

The trembling in your voice every time you say my name like your scared.

Ice cold stares when i walk by

your personality is like a daemon when you are next to me, corrupted by evil and destined for darkness.