City Tech ---the school i attend

I have been attending the New York City College of Technology for about two years now. There are things i like and things i don't like about the cuny system.

Like this tuition hike they implemented. They are raising it every semester for the next 5 years make it feel like a private college. I mean come on why the hell we have to do this to us for.

Some times the teachers don't care about us as students but as a dollar sign. But then some of the teachers are always there for you and those are the classes you can get an easy A in.

The people i have met in the last two years are awesome and i love them very much.

Where does the time gooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so another year is almost gone.
my how time flies
i swear its like we snap our fingers snap and time is gone

Back to school

ok so its about that time

yup i am talking bout back to school and not like any normal person but i am hype

from working all summer i am ready to go back to school and see all my friends

i missed them so much it is unexplainable

what erks my nerves

ok so everyone has something or somethings that just annoys the ish out of them

i have a list

1. clingy people
2. metal rubbing on metal
3. people that think they know everything when they know nothing
4. ones that think that they a better then everyone
5. the stupid auto correct on my ipod touch
6. the fact that u have to sneeze and it just wont come out
7. a loud burp that comes put as just air
8. commercials that cut into other commercials
9. one piece of paper that is out of place for no reason
10. twisted bra straps
11. when u realize you have no more shampoo when u get in the shower


i know i have more but i can't think of them right now

the month of june is almost over. i so wish school was here already.
I feel like this is the worst summer of my life. i know he hates me just by the way he says the things he says.

why can't anyone ever like me for me?

I understand how you are and i can deal with that but please dont try and change me. i like how i am some of the time and i wont dare change how you are becasue i dont like it.

I can't believe i am going to make this into a post about me writing to you, no i wont do that.

This is about me and my randomness.......

I have finally got a summer job, even if its working for the PAL (Police Athletic League) its something and i am happy.

I have to make a dicission if i really wanna go with them to florida or do i want to stay here in NEW YORK.

My whole life is here and idk how i could start over. well i guess i have to look at it from a whats better point of view

For now

me *

What i need? Who I am? What's it worth?

i wanna know how deep you can get. i wanna know how you really feeling.

No holding back this is what i need. I need you to take me as i am, no changing no complaining.

I am the over emotional, always stressing, nothing is perfect, crazy white girl who sets no boundries and lives for the moment but can be serious yet still acts like a lil kid.

I can't help who i am and i dont expect people to like it all. when yu take me you take all of me.

you can't change me nor will i do so because of what you don't like.

i bottle everything up inside and it wont come out unless its forced. i get these pains because of it and will never let it show.

i wanna be liked because of who i am not because of what can be changed about me.

there is no other girl like me and this is what you like about me dont let it go to waste.

I AM WHO I AM NOT WHAT ANY ONE WANTS ME TO BE

so tell me what is it all worth?

Dead feelings

I have to lie to protect my self. It is just something you wont understand.

Summer is starting off OKAY i guess. All i hear is the bitter sounds of your disappointment, the fact that i can never be good enough for you says a lot.

The trembling in your voice every time you say my name like your scared.

Ice cold stares when i walk by

your personality is like a daemon when you are next to me, corrupted by evil and destined for darkness.

New Infatuation

He has a very clam personality, his eyes shine when he looks up. I dont think i have ever liked someone as much as i like him.

the feelings are mutual. but no mater who or what it is you have to take it with a grain of salt.

he is not always around but when i talk to him i feel like it is so peaceful. he is different form the other guys in the group. more mature.

He stands out from the rest, he makes me smile

I don't like labels put on me, so i will say i am your woman but i am my own person.

His words bring influence to my world, a very independent person who knows what he wants.

I can say that he is the one i want, for years or months saying i do not want to deal with a boyfriend or relationship i think i might have found one that has changed my mind.

i am sorry i wont do any of that kiddy stuff like the date we started going out or the two innicials together and then forever. How it moves on it's own is how we will take it.

Till next time

manda

My school friends

Wow so the school year is almost done, i dont know weather to be sad or happy.

i am so glad that i have chosen to go back to school.

I have meet some awesome people this year. They have become my college FAM

the memories that we create are precious

Random conversations in the caff

movie trips

Ramen

crazy Parties (KEys)

They are just amazing, they are all different no two people are the same and thats what makes us so unique.

we each have something that makes the whole a great group

I love everyone of them